Daffodils

This past week at YWAM, one of our afternoons was spent doing Original Design and my mind was blown!  Original design is when someone prays over you, asking God to reveal to them how He has made this specific person special and unique in His eyes.

I was anxious to see what they got, excited to hear how He views me.  One of the words they got was Daffodil, they weren't sure how this played out specifically for me, I did.

After I was born, I had to be in the NICU due to my lungs not being fully developed.  One morning, while my Mom was getting ready to be with me at the hospital, she saw four daffodils in our garden.  One daffodil for each member of the family including me, to her this was a special promise from God that I was going to pull through this.

Knowing this, I knew daffodils were somehow special, I looked up what they meant, daffodils are among the first flowers to poke through the weary winter, the first bright color against a pallet of brown and grey.  Daffodils are joy and a source of joy to others.

My prayer is this, that I may continue to be a daffodil in my Creator's sight, bringing joy to Him and those around me.

refresh

Ahhh... Today has been amazing, God has been uncovering many things.

It's been an amazing journaling type of day!  

I'm really excited, it's been a long journey
to get to where I am.

Today, God added the final last piece to the puzzle!

*In other exciting news*

There are some new pretty faces visiting this blog!!
I'd love to know a little more about you!

Jaded Beauty

Beauty.  At such a young age the worlds starts feeding us the lies that we must look, wear and act a certain way to be beautiful.  I remember playing with my Barbie dolls are seriously thinking that I would someday, end up like that.  Boyfriend and a size zero waist.  Need less to say I was mistaken.

Beauty found in what He created for us.

The world tells us girls, that if we don't have a boyfriend there's something wrong with us.  To me personally this has been a real struggle this past year.  The world says girls my age should have a 'significant other' and right at that moment I feel the wicked whispers slowly slipping into my head, you're not good enough, you're not beautiful that's why guys don't pay attention to you or like you. 

I've really had to wrestle with that this past year, realizing that my true identity isn't in if I have a boyfriend or not.  But my relationship with my Savior.  God has been showing me that I'm beautiful to Him.  If I focus on Him  I'm right where I'm supposed to be.  In love with God and no other. 

A woman's heart should be so lost in God, that a man must seek Him in order to find her.  That is what I'm after.