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When you stand on the edge of a cliff.  Jump to fly.  Not to fall.

God is in control.

He keeps reminding me daily.

As hard as I try to make everything work, I can't.

Only He can.

God is in control.

Just whispering those words a sense of peace washes over me.

My earthly self still has a hard time releasing the control.

But He has the best in store for my life.

Living with your life open and for others isn't easy.

Others think you're crazy.

They don't understand.

But you do, cause God is in control.

Forever and always He will be.

In control.

Be still my beating heart

We had a splash of early spring last week.  The snow is back but I'm still dreaming about spring!  So what is a girl to do but window shop.

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yes, you just saw the same dress three times.  Possible prom dress, I'm leaning towards the bold red.  Not something I would typically do. 

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when I see this dress, my mind goes to cotton candy and fairytale dreams.  Every girl wants to be a princess
 

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this has to be my favorite possible dress yet.  Vintage/retro feel and not too bad of a neck line.  This girl is in love.

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Yes, purple is a core color in my wardrobe

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 love this type of sandal style.  I couldn't find one that worked for me, but alas I find one and it's out of stock.  Until next time.

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If I wasn't 5'10" I would be very tempted to buy these shoes.  Something cute and yet I can see it going with many different outfits.  Maybe it will go on my wishlist :)

  

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Cute dress that would work great for every season and time in between.  Cool summer evenings, warm fall afternoons.

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Springtime, sunshine.  I'm already there 

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I feel like this dress could work with any season.  Good neutral color, could play it up all dressy or casual with some cute boots 

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when I see this dress I think of a warm summer day picnic, enough said right there 

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Look at those cute buttons.  Good dress to transition into fall or spring 

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This dress is so not like my style at all.  But I love it! Sometimes you've gotta try something new. 

This would be it for me.                             

Radical

God has been leading me somewhere new.  Some place radical for Him but sometimes I still have my doubts.  I was feeling those doubts hard today, but when I tried to do the final print for the application.  Nothing was working, the printer, my documents, nothing.  I felt it was a direct attach from the prince of this world trying to stop me in my tracks. 

Now I'm even more excited because Satan is trying to stop me, I'm on his radar.  He knows what God is trying to accomplish through me and he doesn't like it.  He sees my true potential through Christ.  This has never happened before, which means God has some AMAZING and CRAZY things in store for me!
Relying on Him.  I have God on my side.  We will come out victorious.

mask

Hiding behind the mask that culture and society tells us who we are.  Fake, plastic and painstakingly beautiful.

But God has something different in store for us.  Real, raw, unique beauty.  It doesn't come from your smile or your perfect teeth.  It comes from inside the depths of your heart and shines out.

Everyone has a mask they wear, lying to the world that their life is perfect.  They're wrong. No one's life is perfect we all have hit bumps in the road. Sometimes they seem impossible to over come. 

Once we realise we're all fallen and take off our masks and reveal who we really are.  We can start engaging in a deeper relationship with God and a real relationship with each other as brothers and sisters in Christ.  Are you hiding?

Passing Shadows

Lord remind me how brief my time on earth will be.

Remind me that my days are numbered, and my life is fleeing away.

My life is no longer than the width of my hand.

An entire lifetime is just a moment to You, human existence is but a breath.

We are merely moving shadows, and all our busy rushing ends in nothing.

We heap up wealth for someone else to spend.

~ I had this written on a piece of paper inside a folder.  Not sure of the source, thought I would pass it on ~

Remember Me?

Why hello blogging world!
I fell off the map for a while but I'm back.

We had quite a 'sweet' valentines day over here

Weekend Get Away

Tomorrow morning my family and I will all pile into the car, with Taylor Swift blasting through the speakers and travel for four hours to reach our winter weekend escape. 

We aren't really know for doing this, but I have a feeling this weekend will be one for the books!  Only us would go further up north for more snow.  Only us!  New year, new family adventures await. 

Snow Day!

Well, I was wrong.  The snow came! 

This afternoon, after all school was done for the day. Soccergirl and I decided to do a photo shot.  With all the fresh, white snow what could be better right?

Well, we needed taller boots, cause the snow came up to our knees at some points,

better gloves, after wards our fingers felt like they were frozen. 

But after all of that we had fun, the five minutes we spent outside.  Now I know for next time!

She has gorgeous blue eyes

Beautiful Things

I've been introduced to this and it is slowly become one of my top worship songs. It is so powerful. Listen to it over and over again. You can not help but be moved.

Snow?

Tonight and the next few days we are supposed to get around 18 inches of snow.  I'm not quite buying it, but everyone else is.  College classes were cancelled for the night and many local schools are already closed for tomorrow. 

Only time will tell just how much snow we will receive.  Deep down inside though I'm hoping for plenty of snow.  Sledding and snow ball fights will be in my dreams tonight!

changing somethings around here

Alright. I really should be doing school, but I'm not.  But I will shortly.
I changed my blog address.  It is now: againstthegrainforhim.blogspot.com.  I don't know if this will change anything, I'm hoping not.  Just a heads up if problems arise.

Happy Birthday Sweetheart

Today my dear, you are 6 years old.  Hard to believe.  I remember when you first came into this family, you were so quite, drawn into your shell of protection. Longing to be loved and held.  My heart aches to hold you, love you again.  Hear your sweet voice floating to my ear asking me to come play with you.  Or see your curly hair bouncing to beat of the music as you would break out dancing.  I miss you sister.  You were so full of life, hope and joy.  I hope and pray you still are. 

We only had you for a short time but they are forever hidden away in my heart.  I take them out occasionally, and think of you.  Happy 6th birthday sweety.  I pray for you daily, hoping that some day you will find Him.  He will love you always.  Miss you.  Thinking of you.  Happy birthday!